Bold what applies to you, obviously:
01. I have never kissed someone of the same sex on the lips.
02. I see a therapist.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness.
05. I have gauged earrings.
06. I wear black eyeliner every day. 07. I am extremely influenced by kindness.
08. I love to write.
09. I can't live without lipgloss.
10. I'm probably emotionally scarred.
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have. 13. I'll be in college/university for over 4 years.- because im planning on like 8 years
14. I love designer handbags.
15. I've had a concussion before.
16. I'm not good with confrontation.
17. I loved the Backstreet Boys & NSYNC
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I've tried writing poetry before.
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
22. I'm not a fan of rap.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. When I allow myself to get close to people, I get attached.
27. I am not straight.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I was into Hot Wheels as a child.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. My room is painted a color other than white.
32. I cry very easily.
33. I'm always early.
34. I barely ever study for tests.
35. My birthday is my favorite holiday.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I am a morning person.
38. I wish I were smarter.
39. I believe that it is wrong to be gay.
40. I think that its perfectly okay to be gay. 41. No one really knows me. ... maybe my mom 42. I don't have many bad hair days.
43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
44. I am passionate about my interests.
45. I have had the chicken pox.
46. I'm a hopeless romantic.
47. I feel empty sometimes.
48. I am/was most likely clinically depressed at a point in my life.
49. I am no longer depressed.
50. I am very outgoing.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure.
53. I don't notice it, but I'm told I'm very softspoken.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I love the color yellow.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I have absolutely no self-confidence.
60. I've contemplated suicide.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous.
63. I love to play video games.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef. 67. I've had a crush on a teacher before. 68. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a good sense of direction.
71. I've never had a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
72. I've played a musical instrument for more than 5 years.
73. I can function perfectly well without a girlfriend/boyfriend.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue.
76. I don't sew.
77. I am not addicted to drugs.
78. I wear contacts.
.. they are not color contacts- promise 79. I hate it when people say they hate Bush just because he is a moron.
80. I hate Bush.
81. I don't take criticism well.
82. Conformity is stupid.
83. Chris Carrabba is one of the sexiest men alive.
84. Chris Carrabba should die.
85. I love my family. 86. I don't mind getting shots.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. I can be too hard on myself.
90. I'm probably going to have premarital sex.
91. I don't like my nose.
92. I am very religious.
93. I still act like a little kid.
94. I am ridiculously indecisive.
95. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife. 96. I love music.
97. I have problems letting go of people.
98. Jesse Lacey writes some of the most amazing lyrics ever.
99. I don't really like ice cream.
100. I am in love.
so lately i havnt had time to stop and breathe. School and soccer are my life, having soccer everyday of the weekend kills me. i was talking to my brother from Atlanta last night and he said how happy he was that everything was going so well for me... and the moment he said that i realized that i didnt even know myslef how things were- i had to be told how my life was going. it sucks not being able to take a step back from everything once in a while when things are going so fast.
i fell like i've lost my bestfriends since school started. i have had zero time to hangout because the couple of hours i may have in the afternoons i take out to be alone so i can stay sane and not lose myself in this. but after i sat and thought about it.. its pretty lonely at the top. things have been going so well for me lately- but besides my mom i feel like i've lost touch with the people who mean the most to me and i've drifted from all the people who i can talk to. i dont really have any one who will just sit and listen to me go off and understand me like i used to.
it amazes me how everything thats been bothering a person over a long period of time can all come up to the surface and explode out like it does sometimes.
you know your summer's gone down hill when you start praying for time to go by faster so that school will come. i need school more than i need anything. even though theres still 2 years left before i get to leave for college, im about to start couting down the days. i need school to keep me occupied since at this point i dont care about having any sort of social life. i mean i have one- but god it isnt my top priority anymore. the sad thing is that none of my friends feel that way. i am sick of the whole routine. parties bore me, people bore me, this town bores me. there arent any new people in my life, and i really love meeting new people. the excitement is gone. nothing ever happens for me here, and this isnt the kind of place where i can make something happen for myself. i realize just how much i want to leave Virginia Beach, and i will work as hard as is necessary to do so. nobody understands why i want to go away for college, and i dont really understand how anybody wouldnt want to. i dont even love my friends like i used to. everyone is so transparent... there is not one person (outside of my family) that i feel like i can count on. i need new friends, and its not too possible here. the two weeks in michigan didnt help how i feel at all. it just made me realize that mentally i can leave here and not miss a single thing as long as i know its there for me to come back to. i need to make my life happen... these two years cannot go by fast enough. i have a huge amount planned for my life- i want to make a difference. and now i see that all this shit that i do to be "cool" means nothing, and doesnt do anyhting but get me off track and ive been off track for what 2 years now. i know what i need to do and im ready.
i went to the beach today. and i had the greatest time ever. (minus the encounter with a past mistake)
i saw everyone that i love, everyone that means something to me. the girls were all there throughout the day, the soccer boys whom i adore, and some salem kids that i miss terribly. i was even glad to see people that hate me there. yeah, a whole group of people. they can go to hell :] exboyfriends suck.
i got a little color on my pale ass stomach. maybe tomorrow i wont be the whitest person on the beach.
apathy-Lack of interest or concern, especially regarding matters of general importance or appeal; indifference. bore-To fatigue with dullness or tedium: tire, weary. pitiless-Having no pity; merciless. resentment-The quality or state of feeling bitter distress-A troubled or anxious state of mind empty-Devoid; destitute
i miss my best friend more than anything. its aweful to think for like half a year or more, he was the only person i ever really cared to talk to. i hate to think how the only person i trusted, is gone. if there is one person im dying to talk to its him. i hate how when you find a friend who doesnt take advantage of you and doesnt judge you no matter what you say it only take one mistake to lose it. its my fualt. i was trying to be honest to him, but what i said was not the truth... maybe i fucked up too much and wasnt there for him. i really miss my best friend.
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